Mirrorcle Lover

Let it Rain~~~

2012-01-15T23:02:00.001+08:00

This is what i LEARNT in life,

"I think it's a wonderful way to live from day to day. Instead of being down about your situation and waiting for things to get better to be happy and enjoy life, know that God is in control and will take of today and tomorrow. So don't worry, dance and celebrate every day you have."

01-01-2012

2012-01-01T00:28:00.006+08:00

It's a brand new year. Somehow, I don't feel Brand New at all. Enjoying fireworks view outside my room. Fireworks shooting up to the sky like a rocket, and sparks fall like meteor shower.

Same time, Same day but this time, i'm celebrating alone. Last year, i still have Eejing to countdown with.. i wonder how's she's doing with her new Uni life.

Misses my friends and family much~

and i guess,

LONELINESS starts to grow within me.
Sometimes, You think You'll be fine by yourself, Cause a dream is a wish you make all alone,
It's easy to feel like you don't need help, but it's harder to walk on your own..

Besides, i've came out with a New Year RESOLUTION..which is

I shall stick to my resolution of writing always what I think no matter whom it offends.

Dear Self,

2011-12-31T23:11:00.001+08:00

Dear Self,
2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It's the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it's the year you realise who the real ones are. It's the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you're still learning how to get back up.It's the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like you just wasted time. It's the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times. It's the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it's also the year you move on, slowly, and you realise that that is okay.

Poignancy of life 3

2011-12-18T23:37:00.005+08:00

The best thing about having your own room is "You Can Cry All You Want if you Feel Sad" because no matter who i tell my problem to, no one will ever understand my feeling! Neither my family nor friends.

Poignancy of life 2

2011-12-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

Poignancy of life - Cast Down by a Letter

2011-12-14T00:44:00.006+08:00

I just knew this will happen. Once i read the letter, I cry out til my lungs dried out.

DOnt know who to seek, family aren't in motherland, and i've seeked the one that i'll never looked for when i'm having hard times.

She's always the last to know what's happening to me.

This is the first time after for so many years, i've cried on the phone, can hardly talk, pronouns word properly.

I thought i'm right back on track, but LIFE gave me a slap into the face again.

I don't know how many times I have to fall and stand right back up.

It's tiring... and my life is enough will all the negative impacts...

Wearing a fake smile in front of public, Cheering up friends who're moody..BUT WHO DO I TURN TO when i'm facing these troubles?

Sometimes, I wished that time would just STOP RIGHT at High School Year but nothing Last forever. Happy Moments passby at the speed of light.

I just don't know what's happening to me eversince I've started attending university, I thought I'd find a brand new happy version of me. Alas, Depression, Tears and Fear approached me instead of Joy and Confidence.

Dear self,
If you hold on for 1 more day, Can you hold on for 1 more day?
Things'll go your way, so Hold on for 1 more day.

Dear God, please bless me with strength and wisdom to overcome this obstacles.

Remember what Dad told you, LOVE YOURSELF! don't do things that will hurt you deeper inside! LOVE YOURSELF JEN!! LOVE YOURSELF!!!

Life is a journey~~~

2011-12-12T23:57:00.005+08:00

Summer starts tomorrow~ jeez.. everyone is enjoying their holidays, and i've missed out 3 family trips nvm then, who asks me to be so CLEVER in my studies??

Princess is really freaking me out!! Can't you just fking walk to school? u're not born ROYAL, your highness~ so pls! be like a normal human, and just walk!!

whenever i saw your text, it makes me go

and Why daddy haven't give me a call from Korea . Fine, have to settle everything on my own right now~

Buy Nicky's mattress
Do more meditation~

Note to Self:

Shitty stuffs :(

2011-12-12T13:05:00.001+08:00

Waiting Under the Mistletoe~

2011-12-11T19:48:00.002+08:00

Oh boy.. I've been climbing up the stairs more than 10 times within an hour

Will i be able to lose weight?

I wonder how's my family and my baby Cammie doing in Korea~ It's there~ I hope they won't catch a cold over there. Don't have to worry about me, I'm doing fine here

It's just that weather in Malaysia is super nowadays~ i've drank more than 2 litres of water a day~ and i felt super bloated right now T_T

Listening to HOME THIS CHRISTMAS by Justin Bieber ft Band Perry all day long~~~

I'll be waiting under the mistletoe

Safe Trip

2011-12-10T20:39:00.004+08:00

Have a safe trip to my beloved-S to Korea~~
I'll lost 1kg before u see me next time XD haha! *jkjk~
No car = No outing. What a good life ==

Heading to 2ne1's home sooon~
Dear God, please be with us all along the way~~~~ LOVE U~

Dear God...

2011-12-06T12:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it makes me wonder whether prayers work. Thanks for protecting my family and I all these years, but i think this person needs it more than i do right now.

Dear God,
Please give your blessings to "D", as he needs it most right now. He's nice to all of us, though sometimes he's abit mean. But, all of us loves him, and i think YOU know that :'( Please give him the strength to move on, and the power to overcome obstacles. I think he needs it right now. I hope I can figure something to help him out, but I think I wont be able to do anything. Prayer is all i can do now.

I HEART MYSELF D-1

2011-12-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

On Choices

2011-12-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

I'm putting my best FOOT forward, as destiny is not a matter of chance; it is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved. I discovered I always have choices and sometimes, it's only a choice of attitude.

So, Jen, be the girl who dare to DREAM!! You cant tell what may happen to you in the strange medley of life. But YOU can decide what happens in YOU- how u can take it, what u can do with it- and that is what really counts in the end!

p.s. Laugh and learn, my dear. Because we all make mistakes.

Thanks Dad

2011-12-04T23:43:00.008+08:00

A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success.

Dad, U've lifted me up when i fall, and i know, saying Thanks isn't enough.

Thanks for being the best boyfriend in my life!

Thanks for wasting your money on this dumb lil daughter that has never done anything successful in life!

Thanks for the word of encouragement!

U told me to

"LOVE MYSELF no matter what, or else committing suicide will always come across your mind"

"Life knocks you down, just stand back up and continue doing what Life knocks you down until u're able to handle it well"

"Never thought of committing suicide even though u've did some mistakes in life, as that's what human normally did!"

Don't be a coward, fearful and weak
Be the last one to quit, and the first one to speak
Don't hide your face from the light of day
Be courageous in life and stay that way
No need to run from your trials, troubles and problems
Have confidence in your step as you reflect how to solve them
Yet, if you happen to fall, don't lie there and die
Get up without a thought, and hold your head up high
Be wise, courageous, bold and brave
And life will be worth living, from your birth to your grave. -Jereme Durkin

Came across with Overcoming Obstacles by Jereme Durkin in Chicken Soup for Kids Soul that inspires me to live another day in life.

Keep Calm and Smile~

2011-01-22T02:58:00.003+08:00

the old me is back again..

cried like shit...

=.= wtf??so shit until i think i'm gonna end my life any sooner...

oOo

2010-12-29T23:31:00.004+08:00

today!!!
have an urge to grab Americano...
on the way go....to buy..very happy! (late evening)
bought d...on the way back..bumped into half neg( )o i guess??
kept on saying: xcuse me xcuse me.. u look familiar....
then: asked my name...whr am i studying...whr am i living....
then ask can we be friends....
then hand over his hp to me...and ask me to give him my number....

thank GOD ntg happened...

Rantings

2010-12-24T01:37:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just really hate myself. For being a failure to my parents, doing nothing but trouble for them… disappointing them in some ways. :|

Yes, I smile & laugh a lot. But that doesn’t mean I’m always happy inside.

I get so mad that I just break into tears when I can’t take it anymore. :(

Don’t you just hate it when you studied so hard for an exam and when you get to see the results, you get nothing good at all? I mean your effort became meaningless and useless after it. :| That’s exactly what I feel now.

Dedicated to the people who makes me happy. :)

I keep on opening the fridge hoping that a good food will appear… :P

Tumblr is my secret hide-out. :))

How to annoy your parents?

2010-12-22T22:03:00.004+08:00

How to Annoy Your Parents

Follow them around the house everywhere.
Moo when they say your name.
Pretend to have amnesia.
Say everything backwards.
Run into walls.
Say that wearing clothes is against your religion.
Go into their room at 4am and say "Good morning sunshine!"
Snort loudly when you laugh, then laugh harder.
Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time.
Pluck someone's hair out and yell "DNA!"
In public yell "No MOM I will not snog YOU!"
Talk to a pen (Ex: Oh u write so nicely! Yes yes, you do!)
Switch the light button on and off for a while then yell "Oh, i get it!"
Try to climb the wall.
Hold their hand and whisper to them "I see dead people".
Eat your hair.
At everything they say yell "LIAR!"
When you take a shower yell "I'm DROWNING! I'm DROWNING!"
Tap on their door all night saying "HELP ME asdfghjkl!!"
Talk to the commercial guy on the TV about your problems

Ambitions...

2010-12-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

Being alone in the whole unit, made me think lots of non-sense.

I'm daydreaming now, looking at heavy raindrops fall on the cars at the bottom of my condo, and how each hits my room's window pane.

The hitting sounds of the rain makes me go moody,

For the first time in my schooling life, I got a grade that pierce through my heart deeply.

I've been praying hard to avoid that alphabet for quite some time but.. well, on a brighter side, I got quite "good" marks for my father's favourite module. That is the least that i can make both my parents happy about it!

Yes. I'm studying to be an Accountant and I don't know if I will ever become a good one in the future. I used to dream to be a designer but that dream of mine, will never be reached! The star far beyond my imagination.

FUTURE this word really terrifies me when I think about the working days in the future.

Honestly, I'm afraid of growing up even though I'm going to really "GROW UP".

Growing up for me means that my loved ones will get older, which means there'll come a time where i have to send 'em off. Nah~ let's just focus on the present and build a better future. Though past for me is also memorable.

Core Yoga

2010-12-22T01:29:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, kar yee and I went for core yoga class at bodyXpress in subang avenue XD.

Core yoga calms your "freaking" mind and of course will increase your flexibility as well. It'll strengthen your core and tone your midsection.

the poses that we did during class... this is the first time i felt my body stretched til so relaxing. lol makes me feel so good after the doing it.

the poses are like below:

Finally, this is how i look after the whole core yoga session...

no joke! my face really look like this XD

Chili's with my other Vein

2010-12-20T19:15:00.002+08:00

Luncheon with my other VEIN again AT CHILI'S

where food tastes like HEAVEN to both of us .. lol!

Yew ordered FireCracker Fish Fillet. It have sweet and sour gravy on it! it's so de...li..cious...

My All time favourite! honey chipotle crispers. but it's damn fattening.. who cares rite? the world is coming to an end btw.. just eat as much as u can! live your life to the max!

p.s: ash! FYI, there's delivery for Chili's! haha!

Outing with my other VEIN

2010-12-18T13:36:00.001+08:00

Today, i went out with my other VEIN

We haven't meet up like for several months.. gosh! time flies

Well, in order to save the parking tickets to avoid our purse from "butterflies" effect,

my other VEIN parked at my residence's visitor car park.. then together we walked the canopy walk to pyramid.

Non-residents are not allowed to park within the compound of the condo.. but who care's right? haha the guard said 10 minutes..

If both of us obey the guard's words.. the whole street will be flooded with sows and hogs

We went for Tron Legacy. honestly, Walt Disney's movies are getting more and more 3D. Tron Legacy's graphic.. omg! killing me! so futuristic and nice~

Once the movie started, me and my other VEIN stomach ache.. lol

Maybe the cinema is too crowded or what.. so freaking stuffy in it~ makes me wanna vomit.

Plus, lesbo-s sitting next to me hugging each other, holding hands.. what else more a lesbo can do.. that will be.

The "users" in Tron Legacy always uses motor vehicles to fight their opponents, which makes me think of my other VEIN's car ... what if the car went missing? got towed? Great! I'm in the middle of movie, and now my tummy is full of WORRIES..

After the Movie.. we went for light Dinner in a japanese cafe.

gosh! the food~ sucks! dessert also sucks! they still dare to call their ice cream as GELATO

we come.. The CAR is still there XD if not, i'll be so freaking doom.. haha

happy birthday junsu

2010-12-15T02:57:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday JunSU!!!!

always keep the faith XD

1st day of summer school

2010-12-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

today's it's my very first day of SUMMER school

and guess what..
the weather..it's cold...

so fudging chilling until i nearly catch a cold on my way to uni

i can feel the breeze while i'm walking

i kept on sneezing all the way...

nose's itching..

urghh!
But, i ♥ it! that's my type of weather...

to Sunway for building a canopy walk for the students..
it really is convenient!
oh gosh! i love you so much!! without you~ i don't think i got the chance to walk to pyramid and reached there in 5 minutes!

Body covered with MOSS soon

2010-12-09T00:51:00.006+08:00

It's been a month i've spent my holidays in Ipoh
and I'm heading back to PJ.

well, most of my housemates aren't around, and yeah..including mine
frankly, i think i'm going nuts.. or i have some kind of mental problem
i enjoyed solitude very much!
and this is not a very good thing~ though i'm used to be ACCOMPANIED by friends most of the time,
but ALONE is kinda a new feeling for me right now...
walk alone to sunway pyramid ♥ it!

walk alone to monash ♥ it
sleep alone in my room ♥ it

Well, for now..i guess i'm almost covered with moss in my room XD
THank GOD i downloaded lots of movie back at home...
so i watched 16 wishes just now.

What i learnt from that movie is, I cannot simply make a wish as it will not turn out exactly what we wanted. I think that connotes with my current condition.

btw,

when i'm not around, there're loads of "TERMITES" around me...

darn it! my stuffs are all viziato!! thanks to YOU!!!
cuss u!

♥Io amo la lingua italiana

Trust a Life for a living...

2010-12-04T00:31:00.003+08:00

Time flies like a blink of an eye...

it seems like i had just started my uni life in monash yesterday,
and now i'm going to be a second year student.
And we as undergrads are 1 step closer to the "real adult" world.

Right now,
I think i'll appreciate life more than before.
I will never give up that easily like I did before.
I will live my life to the maximum!
I hope i will not let my loved-ones down AGAIN...

SO here i am... learning the formula of LOVE now... just to appreciate more about the life i have right now.
Loving family, Caring friends... I ♥ U!

Summer school starts next week.

kinda looking forward to it...
hope i'll do well in it!

Exams released

2010-12-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

Today~ the results released. Well, frankly, i've never cried that much over studies.
this is the very first time i cried my ass off~
cried continuously for a few days before the results release. sounds stupid huh? lol..this is too much for me!
well, by the time i got to know that 1 of my friend failed 3 papers out of 4,
i started to cry like my tears are going to drown both of my parents.
my head is just full with questions: what if i fail 3 papers? what if i fail everything?

well, my wishes do contribute some luck...
past few days, i've been listening to AIRPLANE by B.O.B ft Hayley Williams.
that time, i really hope that if i wish upon the airplane
it'll grant my wish
though i failed only 1 paper, i need to strive in the future, to get better results!

i swear to myself this time!

besides,
i would like to show a token of gratitude to my family and friends for being there for me through high and low all the time.
ASH, especially you.. without you, i don't think i can pass my marketing cause of the Ansoff growth theory. Without you reminding me, i would not have been able to pass this paper.

for SOMEONE, thanks for the law stuffs! for letting me finish 1 whole book of law in time.
i guess it's more than enough! as long as i've passed LAW merrily. thanks to U!

letter to i-hope-u-know-who-u-are

2010-12-01T11:05:00.004+08:00

TO i-hope-u-know-who-u-are,

It's best for you to disappear!

Thank goodness i don't have to see U that often anymore..

our life from now onwards will be back and forth

when i come to think of it,

i felt my life will be full of joy!

i've wasted much money on u! STOP saying how pity you are, how weak you are!

i'm tired of everything!! get your own life!!

though i know People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.

stop stomping around to let everyone knows your existence

how i wish i... sigh...

Screw YOU!

2010-11-25T00:07:00.004+08:00

Do not judge men by mere appearances; for the light laughter that bubbles on the lip often mantles over the depths of sadness, and the serious look may be the sober veil that covers a divine peace and joy. [Ecclesiastes]

screw the WING-ed GUY!

cant you just be more ATTENTIVE!?

and when u talk, pls mind your fucking words!!

those words that you spoke can pierce through one's heart!

Act like such a fucker! LOOK INTO THE MIRROR and OBSERVE YOURSELF

before you commented on someone!

I am not judged by the number of times I fail, but by the number of times I succeed; and the number of times I succeed is in direct proportion to the number of times I can fail and keep on trying.[Tom Hopkins]

The Wonder Years

2010-11-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

Over the course of the average lifetime,

you meet a lot of people. Some of them

stick with you through thick and thin.

Some weave their way through your life

and disappear forever. But once in a

while someone comes along who earns a

permanent place in your heart.

JYJ Show case- The Beginning

2010-10-17T18:38:00.007+08:00

JYJ- The Beginning

i've been waiting for this day for almost 2 years...

i've been stargazing ever since i missed the "O" concert that was held in M'sia (1124)

I always see them through my computer screen or tv, that's all.

I wanted to see Micky so much

The journey to Stadium Negara really SHORTEN my life!

Worse still, the showcase held during afternoon! when the sun was not friendly at all,

IT kepts on transmitting HEAT to us! i've gotten Heat stroke few days back..and i'm worried that i'll faint on the spot before i even gotten into the freaking Stadium.

When we're out there waiting under the HOT SUN,

the boys are rehearsing!!! i heard Xiah, Micky and Hero's voice!! ahh~~

i'm so touched! i can't believe that i can hear them like just a stone's throw away

It's so clear except for the ECHO-es

Cassies sang "FOUND YOU" out there, accompanying the boys... love it..so happy to hear that everyone actually memorizes this song.

The moment has arrived...and i'm lazy to go on, so i'll just let the pictures do their work..

~Introducing themselves and words from 3 of them~

~Serena C (MC of d day) told them about the ...lah often used by M'sians~

~when they were asked when will the concert be held, Hero answered: "NExt year, SUMMER!" it seems like he doesn't know the fact that M'sia is SUMMER throughout the year :) how cute he is..

~Micky during "found U"~

~Xiah during "found You"~

~Hero during "found you"~

~The End~

~This wasn't the END between JYJ and the cassies, it's just the BEGINNING, we'll see each other again SOME DAY~

Though we Malaysian Cassies can't give u a MASSIVE pearl red ocean,

but we'll try our best to make it like how it looks in KOREA in the FUTURE!

shoot!!!

2010-10-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

there she goes agaiN~~

I miss u...

2010-10-05T18:33:00.002+08:00

I MISS those days where the 6 of us stick together like the jellybeans

I MISS having lunch with the 6 of us together

I MISS gossiping around with the 6 of us together

I MISS doing assignment together as 6

I MISS every single moment with the 6 of us together

stop

2010-09-19T16:01:00.003+08:00

stop telling me non-sense....i've had ENOUGH!!!!

screw her

2010-09-10T14:29:00.003+08:00

still awake...

2010-09-07T05:12:00.001+08:00

it's 5.14a.m.
what the heck am i doing? i'm still not in bed...
thanks to LAW subject!!
back to work

sigh..,.

2010-09-04T12:55:00.003+08:00

pictures

2010-09-01T18:32:00.002+08:00

craps

2010-09-01T18:21:00.002+08:00

my hunger MODE extended from 5.30 hours to 8 hours!!

yay me!!!

8 hours not in DOSE OFF mode!!

but in AWAKE mode!! XD

pissed off!

2010-08-31T12:04:00.002+08:00

Why can't U just leave it on?!
I need to catch some Z's under a chill climate!!!

people like u is the reason why i have MIDDLE FINGER!!!

~

2010-08-27T12:46:00.005+08:00

i'll blog on pictures more than words from now onwards..
due to my LAZINESS . i'm turning myself into a SLOTH right now XD

Pictures

2010-08-25T20:27:00.004+08:00

Picture

2010-08-25T15:53:00.001+08:00

Picture time

2010-08-24T20:02:00.004+08:00

Disappointed

2010-08-23T20:22:00.003+08:00

The days longing for each other quickly passes by
So fast, so fast, only..
I miss you, My thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart
Once again, I want to give my heart to you
If you call me, I’ll go to you
I want to smile by your side
By mere moments, your heart may be hurt
I want to comfort your hurts which cannot be healed alone
If I cannot be by your side, I’ll just
Hold you shadow in my heart, hold in my heart, and…
All the days, my thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart
I will never let go of your heart again
If you cry, I’ll go to you
I want to always stand by your side
If it is your wish, I’ll try every means
I want to grant your future, your eternal dreams, I wish
I miss you, my thoughts are always with you, from the bottom of my heart
For countless times, to heart, I’ll smile for you
Even though sad, or happy
I want to smile by your side
With all my heart
Find me, and I’ll be there for you

Why does the word DISAPPOINTED always have to come from U? i'm tired of it! I can't take it anymore. I'm letting you go. How i wish i got xYz to talk to, as they know how i felt. They've always tell me Don't Give a Damn on U, which obviously i didn't did that on U before. From the moment i really get to know you, then i realized that i'm just a toy to u, A BIG FAT TOY!

I'm sure sometimes you'll notice that you're just making use of me though not all the time.

This makes me always question myself:

WHO AM I TO YOU??
AM I YOUR _ _ _ _ _ _??
DID YOU TREAT ME AS A _ _ _ _ _ _ _??

well, I think all I need to do now is let my body lay on the surface of the pool .. to calm myself down~ at least, i feel safe when i'm surrounded by water. bye...

Water-holic

2010-08-22T13:19:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOSH!!!

I DRANK 3750ml of water yesterday!

and now~ less than 2 hours, i've drank 1 litre of water ==

and it's only 1.19pm which is still in the afternoon...

am i going to die?? people drug overdose

i'll maybe die of water overdose -.-

FRIDAY 13th!!

2010-08-13T15:17:00.002+08:00

it's "FRIDAY the 13th"
and early in the morning, it rains like cats and dogs . speechless
make me so moody which makes me woke up from bed at 11.45am (yay me!)
i'm waking up later and later day by day..
i'm going nuts..and i always sleep at 2am or after...
i'm dying soon.. if i continue to stick onto those habit of sleeping at the WEE hours..
i'm no longer normal~ i'm turning into a vampire soon enough before i even notice about it.

EMO day~ negative thoughts are always hunting me down recently.
having nightmares almost every night, the worst is Someone i Love actually PASSED away in my dream. this really scared the hell out of me~

God, Please Send a Happy Angel to me to cure my MENTALLY ILLNESS ...
i don't know i can stand for how long~

2010-08-12T18:05:00.000+08:00

I will learn to live before I die
will learn to love and learn to try
not to give it all away

12:34

2010-08-12T17:46:00.001+08:00

12:34
The scattered past times,
And our timid smiles we shared are becoming one by the purple ocean,
Although we haven't been lovers for long,
The footsteps we imprinted one by one while looking at the same direction are with me,
Nothing better than that

The days I could not think preciously of another person other than me,
Because of the loneliness which became natural for me,
The incandascent sun which bothered the mornings,
The bright moon which lightened the road at night,
The small and innocent memories make me sulk and restless

I've figured it out now that you're my only love,
I'll become the warm wind and embrace you,
So you can't remember the tears you cried without my knowing,
At times I'm afraid that you'll disappear like an illusion,
No matter if it rains, or it becomes as pitch dark,
I'll wait by your side, nothing better than that

The conversation we shared over the phone,
The times you complained after falling down,
Your expressions and body language make me laugh

The scattered past times,
And our timid smiles we shared are becoming one by the purple ocean,
Although we haven't been lovers for long,
The footsteps we imprinted one by one while looking at the same direction are with me,
Nothing better than that

The world in which flowers blossom and fade in a day,
My feelings for you, despite the millions of love which engrave itself and erase,
Although the uncountable times pass slowly,
The love I promised you on that day will always remain forever

I've figured it out now that you're my only love,
I'll become the warm wind and embrace you,
So you can't remember the tears you cried without my knowing,
At times I'm afraid that you'll disappear like an illusion,
No matter if it rains, or it becomes as pitch dark,
I'll wait by your side, nothing better than that

By your side,
I'll become a tree,
I'll give you a place to rest,
I'll be your guiding light,
And wait for you,
Nothing better than that

12:34

2010-08-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

DIS-spirit-ED of me

2010-07-31T23:37:00.006+08:00

I feels like ending my life like now, since i don't have strong feelings about anything anymore except that PARTICULAR thing which seriously puts me into the condition of taking a gun (if i have one) and pull the trigger and shoot right into my brain.

Right now, I felt everything is pointless to me.
Sometimes I even thought of ending my life for there's no reasons
I felt like sleeping and i hope when i wake up, it'll be the next life
Sometimes, I need a drama or movie to kill time or to kill my inner-me "depress version of me"

NO matter how hard i try,
that FEELING is still killing me..
WHenever i think about it,
ONLY TEARS WILL FLOW
WHICH i know is totally USELESS,
and it HELPS NOTHING for REAL!!

How i wish i could stay in my own DREAMS FOREVER..
No more WAKING UP & back into the reality
LIFE IS NO LONGER MEANINGFUL TO ME
though i have family back there supporting me.

i know everyone goes through feelings they just don't want to feel,
i know THis is so called -LIFE-.
it isn't always happy but full of sorrow
that's what my definition of LIFE right NOW.

p.s. sometimes i do hope that i was born RETARDED as they can live life happier than norms like us

frustrated

2010-07-25T23:35:00.004+08:00

what a boring weekend..
i cooked and cooked and cooked just to waste some time~
i wonder why... i didn't miss my family.
i think i won't be going home for 2 months..if i really made up my mind not to miss any lectures!

Darn it! why does the old "GIRLS" won't change their darn attitude? Only that PARTICULAR ATTITUDE!!
they're really getting on my nerves! i'm afraid i can't hold it anymore and i'll just BURST like that..

Cause of you guys..i did sinful things almost every week!
just to avoid seeing your face! I said No means No, don't think that you can PERSUADE me from NO to YES. that's impossible for you girls!

Just DO YOUR OWN STUFF! STOP BUGGING ME ALL THE FREAKING TIME!!
I'm TIRED OF IT!!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

One Piece

2010-07-24T15:04:00.004+08:00

This is my favourite part in ONE PIECE!
I've never laugh that badly whenever there are some funny parts too~
so i would just like to post the funniest part (which i think so) onto my bloggie

-THE END-

lol~ thanks to them..Mermaid for me is Pretty half human with tails, slim and polite...
In contrast, the mermaid that is shown in One Piece are *er hem* u saw it~

MARKETING

2010-07-21T18:30:00.005+08:00

Today, is my first time attending marketing class.
so... i have to say that Ms Crystal Yap is the LAMEST lecturer i've ever met!
Worse than Mr. Lim Chee Leong! shall i say WORST? my gosh

ok..during lecture, Ms. Crystal introduce herself and all the marketing unit staff etc.
then there she goes..she said: Ok, everyone. i'll tell you ONE JOKE! This joke i still remember it UNTIL today~
so as a STUDENT, i pay attention to her joke since the way she said I STILL CAN REMEMBER IT UNTIL TODAY. i thought would be the world most hilarous joke

8 years ago, there's one student who doesn't speak fluent english, she went to the staff room or whatever place to look for her. BUT that student forget/don't know her name. so that time (i think she's pregnant so..)
The student said: err..do u know a teacher..she's like that like that (indicating the teacher's stomach is BIG ENOUGH to STORE a FOETUS inside!)
then...Ms. Crystal Yap said: THAT'S ALL!!

the whole lecture hall of 500 students went .........

hello missy!! u call that a JOKE?! i call that a SH*T man!!!

here's a little CLEVER joke we learned in lecture today XD

1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. "Marry me!"

- That's Direct Marketing..."
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2. You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says: "He's very rich. "Marry him."

-That's Advertising..."
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3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day, you call and say: "Hi, I'm very rich. "Marry me

- That's Telemarketing..."
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4. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink, you open the door (of the car)"Marry Me?"

- That's Public Relations..."
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5. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says:"You are very rich! "Can you marry ! me?"

- That's Brand Recognition..."

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6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. Marry me!" She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.

- "That's Customer Feedback..."

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Here's another 3
7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: "I am very rich. Marry me!" And she introduces you to her husband.

- "That's demand and supply gap..."
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8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say anything, another person come and tell her: "I'm rich. Will you marry me?" and she goes with him

- "That's competition eating into your market share..."
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9. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say: "I'm rich, Marry me!" your wife arrives.

- "That's restriction for entering new markets..."

Area of Torts

2010-07-20T22:06:00.004+08:00

i'm accepting U day by day...
I don't really know the reasons why...
maybe it all started from THAT particular day...
where you consoled me with some encouraging words
Sorry for treating you badly previously...
but, I'll try my very best to treat you better...

Like everyone always said:
Make more friends, than making more enemies...
i'll bare this in mind

JENWEI!! i freaking miss u right now!!!
u made me cannot gossip T_T u TALL and CURLY GOLDEN HAIR GIRL!!!

Besides, something worse happen!! Today right after the LAW class, i saw it with my eyes! a no. 1339 MOVE automatically and bang into a taxi's door... MY JAWS DROP i was like

Is there something wrong with my eyes? or it just really happen right in front of my eyes...
i saw mrs eunteuk kept on saying sry to the driver...poor thing~ and i just couldn't help it cause i'm standing at the pathway thr, with empty minded..like how could this happen to her?
.
oh ya...According to Law, this is so called : AREA OF TORTS. the stupid taxi driver asked for Rm600 to repair his freaking CROOKED taxi door!! f. off!! and WHERE ON EARTH a TAXI DRIVER CAN EARN RM100 PER DAY!?!?!? NON-SENSE!!

Mr. Taxi DRIVER, u're talking NO SENSE MAN!!!!!

i hope everything will turn out fine~from sookling's face..i think tears will burst out anytime... cause i can somehow feel that deep down inside her heart..her anger is going to burst out~ hope she's fine~

S.O.R.R.Y.

2010-07-18T18:58:00.003+08:00

Sorry for letting you Down
Though You Pardon-ed Me
And said You've Tried Your Best
But I still can't Forgive myself

Smile will no longer be real in me
Tears always flowing down my cheek
whenever i think about it
Now
I'm overloaded with Sadness & Disappointment
I don't know how long will it takes to "cure" it
I'm just not me anymore.
I can hardly smile right now
I'll STRIVE for IT next time~
SORRY

FAREWELL

2010-06-25T18:14:00.003+08:00

I shall resurrect my blog~ sigh~
well, today~ is the day my dearest ROOMMATE officially STEP OUT OF OUR BELOVED ROOM~
lol!

Jenwei,
Thanks for everything the word EVERYTHING comprises a lot of thing~ i'll miss you although the both of us just stay together for 4 months~ but that 4 months meant a lot to me!
u're the first roommate to cook for me~
thanks a lot!! don't worry, u're also the first to drink my TONG SUI~ haha! the above pictures resembles our CRAZY-ness XD
ya..like what you said: 虽然还有话没说，但最重要的是保持联络！
we'll keep in touch~ ^^ Uhnie~ XD

saranghae, hope u'll enjoy your holiday in your hometown... the 101 tower XD haha!!
annyeong my Unnie~ wish u the best of health and the best of luck in EXETER!!

Happy Birthday Yu Chun

2010-06-04T13:14:00.003+08:00

it's Yu Chun's birthday! haha!!!
u're growing healthier and healthier...
I can see it~ but never mind! as long as you're happy~
i'm happy too ^^
I <3 u!!
take care!!!!
I'll stand by your side no matter what happens ^^
wish you all the best in your career ^^
hope to see u soon~

birthday ASH

2010-04-27T10:31:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday ASH
sorry for posting this post for after 2 months~

Missy, thanks for always being there whenever i needed help,
though i seek for you guidance on teeny weeny problems,
you'll still help me no matter what~ THANKS!

You're a good friend, you always concern about your friends...
whenever they're down~ you'll immediately think of something just to cheer them up~
i'm Glad to have you This Kind of friend,
and i think peiyeong and yenshiang etc are some of the LUCKY GIRLS to have you as their besties!

I how we "STICK" together in uni~ we are just like the HONEY BEE with the HONEY, if either one of us skips tutorial or lecture, the other one will most probably play truant

thanks for always fetching me back home~ fetching me to sunway pyramid~ fetching me to the train station~ thanks for everything!!!! it's uncountable...or maybe INFINITE

i hope you like your present although we just bought it for you last thursday which is the 17th June (i saved this post as draft, i updated after 2 months XD)

May God Bless You! and i hope you'll have ABUNDANCE of babies in the future XD

BuBba Gump

2010-04-18T13:35:00.003+08:00

Bubba Gump

First time having lunch in Bubba Gump~
well, i'm a seafood lover~ so i enjoyed eating shrimps XD haha! HEAVEN!!
went to bubba gump with my beloved roommate, jenwei~ i'll let pictures tell the stories..

my Seafood Baked Rice

Jenwei's "I'm Stuffed" Shrimp

Due to greediness, the both of us planned to try Bubba Gump's dessert the following week, and here we are!! back for the desserts!!!!!! i've ordered "THAT CHOCOLATE THING" and Jenwei Ordered "MAMA'S STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE"

p.s. Those desserts were FREAKING HUGE!!! JUST ORDER ONE!! IF YOU GOT ONLY 2 PAX!! if not!! u'll REGRET!!! urghh~ btw, the strawberry shortcake, i don't really enjoy it
i still remember our face expression when we first taste the strawberry shortcake~ jenwei and my expression both STONE! the taste is DISGUSTING for the both of us. "that chocolate thing" taste nice but very SWEET~ but at least better than the shortcake XD

DISAPPOINT

2010-04-04T14:28:00.002+08:00

Within 1 day, I FOUND OUT so many things about you...
I'm Very DISAPPOINTED in you!!
can't Believe FRIENDS comes before FAMILY for YOU!
I really HOPED that you won't ruin whatever you have right now.
Cherish it with all your heart! as this will be your 20th years with "that-someone"

Home! here i come!

2010-03-31T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'm GOING HOME!
TO A PLACE WHERE I BELONG!

met up with a nice guy..borrowed us umbrella
thx 2 ashley everything!!!

Music Syndrome in my head

2010-03-22T16:21:00.003+08:00

I have a music syndrome right now T-T
Songs kept on repeating in my head..
"WHO AM I" kept on hunting my head~
help!!!

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.

320 i 13elieve

2010-03-20T23:31:00.004+08:00

A day worth remembering to all ELF-es.
A day I enjoyed "half-deaf" due to the "HIGH"ness of all cassiopeias and elfs
A day I nearly lost my voice due to the EXTREME cheering for the Suju members
A day I saw a sapphire pearl blue sea right in front of me in my life
A day I saw Shining Stars sparkling through out the Shining Star performance
A day I saw Lee-Teuk in tears during Shining Star
A day I saw Eun-Hyuk rapping throughout the concert
A day I saw Shi Won - the living work of ART who knelt down right in front of us
A day I saw Dong Hae- who loves dancing so much
A day I saw Hee Chul- the one who enjoyed most on stage with different expressions
A day I saw Shin Dong- the cutest guy on Earth
A day I saw Kyu Hyun with such powerful voice
A day I saw Ye Sung who can't really control his SMILE :)
A day I saw Ryeo Wook with such cute personality
A day I saw Sung Min with such "Build up" muscles
A day I saw Henry moon-walking with his violin
A day I saw ZhouMi - a guy obviously did something to his nose XD
A day I will engraved everything in my heart~

S.O.U.P

2010-03-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with jenwei for some grocery shopping
but before that, we headed Sushi Zanmai for lunch
we ate the Soft Shell Crab Maki (wow! it's so DELICIOUS )

I bought tomatoes, broccoli, onions and green chillies for the very first time!
jenwei also bought me a dragon fruit juice!

Here's the birth of the FIRST VEGE SOUP! with the help of jen wei~
thanks a lot!

Insanity!

2010-03-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

SL, i'm AGITATED! I'm going insane cause of those things again!!
going to burst into tears!!
gosh!! i didn't even know what to do for the management.
Statistics worse still! what the fuck?
ethnic fraction? how do i know about their tribes or what so ever!!
ethnic fraction got many types! which they want?
kellyn fang! pls give me the FISH to EAT straight away!!!
and pls don't teach me how to FISH the FISH!! I'm going to end my life soon if i still can't do these stupid assignments!!!!

Pearl Red & Sapphire Pearl

2010-03-04T22:40:00.003+08:00

The Sapphire Pearl Girl will kill me when she see this picture man~ haha!!

the Pearl Red girl and Sapphire Pearl Girl chilled themselves up in the library, 3rd floor.

The environment is so comfortable til u'll feel like there are pixies casting spells on Girls like us to fall so deeply asleep~

Pearl Red girl did not FALL INTO the spells cast by those pixies. Unfortunately,Sapphire Pearl Girl did FALL INTO the spells. Now,Sapphire Pearl Girl is waiting for her Prince Charming to present her the KISS OF LIFE

CUT!!! BACK TO REALITY~! There's not much time left!! need to attend lecture in 5 minutes!!

Pearl Red girl and Sapphire Pearl Girl then walked to Auditorium to attend lecture.

gosh, life in uni right now are so stressful on the first week we started schooL!!!! Going to stress out by those assignment soon...

Met up College Mates

2010-03-02T18:25:00.001+08:00

last minute plan~ just to meet up with our SEXAY queen Diane 2!!

Shiau Veen followed along at the eleventh hour.
anyway, it's really glad to see them after a few months break!
SL drove Lakeside campus to pick up the VIPS and I as a bodyguard, i went down to "CALL UPON" them
once we hop onto the car, we gossip all the way til we stuff food into our mouth

lunch at sushi zanmai~
but 1 thing about lakeside campus,
why on earth lectures have to held from 4pm-7pm??
that is ridiculous!!!!
poor diane and shiau veen~~

the MONASH soulmates saw something that REALLY contaminated their eyes til puke blood

Outing with Parents~

2010-02-26T11:58:00.002+08:00

Parents and 2 younger siblings came down today!!!
pleased to see them!! although i haven't met them for like only a WEEK.

Hope to see them more often like how i used to~
miss home-cook food very much

p.s chagia, be strong ya!!! i LURB u

Orientation Day

2010-02-22T19:05:00.002+08:00

first day of orientation in Monash~
the only thing that i've etched in my mind is... the Campus Video, they actually put SHOW ME YOUR LOVE as the background song! wahaha!!!! I this school very much!!!!
and there's 1 guy who's in charge of our safety or insurance, either one
the insurance only benefit those.. who are terminally ill (which you are going to die) and PERMANENTLY DISABLE (wth?)

Next thing is, ash and I went to taylor's lakeside campus that lakeside is actually very near, but we're like IN A MAZE trying to make our way out of it, so that we can reach Lakeside campus. ridiculous! haha!! Student Central has transform themselves into Bank, need to take number if wanna ask 1 question

Then went to sunway with ash ash for lunch
i wonder what happen to all those waiter's eyes, they seem to ... haha! ANYWAY, thx to HIM this kind of thing happened twice a week for my case. lol!!
Thanks a lot Ash, haha!! i owe you tonnes of time!!! thanks for willing to spend your precious time with this stupid lil girl~

Home Bitter Home

2010-02-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

back to subang again~
will miss home

can't believe my dad and mum made such big sacrifice ! by accompanying me eating sushi
i'm glad that they also enjoyed themselves!!

p.s.
omma, pls get well soon~ take care of yourself while i'm not around
ahbuji, you too! take good care of yourself, don't sleep so late at night just to do your work,
i won't let you down this time

looking forward to next friday, i can see my parents ! yay!!!

stay at ash house

2010-02-10T20:42:00.004+08:00

Went back to subang to deal with those enrollment stuffs. Got a chance to meet up with Ash too! Miss her so so so much!!! i've also stayed overnight at ash's Mansion!

We also chat with Melody, our BF thru msn. Poor thing, she looked so tired and unhappy due to all those unnecessary stuffs that happen to her I hope i can make her smile by just talking non-sense to her

This is my first time staying overnight at my friend's place , quite fun though! ash and I slept at around 2am i think. My memories in ash's ROOM:

Stars shining in her room
Reminiscing on her bed
Gossiping on her bed
Torched the stars to shine BRIGHTER
Slept together after several hours

Ash's treasure box filled with magic...haha!! and SM ENTERTAINMENT'S Artists' History

Went to our uni the very next morning to settle our stuffs.

p.s. Ash, thanks for everything u've provided me on that particular day. This post is to show gratitude towards u and your parents XD i really enjoyed my time!

Shine With Taylors!!

2010-01-31T22:27:00.003+08:00

Taylor's Graduation Day

It's my graduation day for Taylor's Business Foundation!!!
Dress in that robe really make all the graduands look like characters from Star Wars or Harry Potter
The graduation ceremony is held at the Plenary Hall, KL Convention Centre.

so nice and yet make me feel HOT. it's quite stuffy in it after we received our scroll, maybe because we don't feel the anxious in us anymore

Not much to say here, all i have to say is:

I'm Officially Graduated from TAYLOR'S BUSINESS SCHOOL!!!

Freedom!!! Freedom!!!

p.s. Met with Ashley's parents that day All i have to say is our parents LOOKS LIKE they've known each other since 10 years ago compare to Ashley and I Isn't it very over Ash? they totally abandoned us when they're talking just kidding!! don't tell your omma and appa about this!! haha!!! Actually i'm really glad that our parents can get along so well like how we do, all i want to say is I hope our friendship will last long. Chinguu, Saranghae!!!

Happy 2010!!!!!

2010-01-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

The year 2009 had been swept away by the ROARING tide of 2010. I have come up with a couple of resolutions for this fiery year

I hope the veil of peace will hover above the world so that INNOCENT people do not have to suffer UNNECESSARILY from ruthless acts I also need to remind myself to appreciate my nearest and dearest. I have been blessed with devoted family members who support me no matter what and sincere friends that i met during my days in Taylor's life ( u know who you are ^^ and i truly love you guys!!) and also close friends whom i knew few years ago in High School who are perpetually by my side through thick and thin. I wish that in year 2010, i'll meet nice friends like I did during the year 2009

I hope to live a day longer, make a day happier and pass a year feeling fulfilled. May God bless the sick and weak, maintain the strong and healthy to protect the innocent and helpless.

I pray and hope that my wishes would not remain mere wishes and that my wishes for 2010 would become reality.

Bye 2009!!!!

2009-12-31T23:39:00.001+08:00

2009!!

2009 is the year where i met lots of wonderful people out there and able to understand the word "TRUE FRIEND" means.

Sweet and sorrow moments do happen a lot within this year. Sweet memories will be etched in my heart forever while the sorrow one i'll take it as a lesson as an experience in my walk of life.

I think I can consider myself as one of the lucky ones. I met wonderful housemates and college mates during my time in Taylors. Able to face obstacles alone and many more..

Thanks God for the blessing. Hope everyone on earth will lead their life merrily.

Summer in Australia 2009

2009-12-15T21:02:00.003+08:00

sorry for delaying this post as long as possible XD
i've spent my summer in australia the past few weeks... i had a great time in melbourne because of it's cold weather. I enjoyed myself under the cold rather than hot...so i'll let pictures do its job..
i haven't finish editing the sydney and gold coast pics...so i'll just post up the melbourne trip 1st...

School's Out!!!!

2009-11-26T20:39:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

The school out for this time will be slightly different from the previous holidays..
cause it will be the last time seeing my fellows partner-in-crimes
Meeting up with you guys is the only reason i went to college without fail
Today is the last day hanging out with you guys...i cherished every single moment on that day
I enjoyed very much going out with you guys

Melody YYY- Hey you FIXED COST!! thanks to you for turning me into a competitive type of girl! and also thanks for creating a "fanclub" for me! (that i belongs to harry!!!! shoot u!) cause of yoU!! the shy-shies always called me Mrs Harry!!! After you leave TBF to achieve your DREAMS, i can't believe..i still can live on like normal people XD so never ever thought that i cannot live without you ok??? cause u're meaningless in my life! no la..jkjk!! haha!!! u're the BF i've met in college....don't be frustrated with your life in Cambridge A Levels ok? not worth it. just say out my name, those NORMS shall bow to you XD (absurdity is the spice of life)

Ashley CSL- thanks for always being my pair of ears and hands when i needed help . It's very nice of you! Really! i appreciated everything you did for me!! The funny thing is the both of us can quarrel for the sake of Paying each other's bill stupid us! haha!! and you too!!! thanks for being the no.2 for signing up the Mr DRGD fanclub!!! urghhhH!!! driving me crazy!!!! and pls!! u're damn genius ok!??! no more saying that IT'S MY LUCK!!!!
Luck ur head!!! where got such things luck can make you score 50/50 for so many times man?? aiyo!!! in short, i love u! XD

Diane Too- thank you for always ruling my life in your way XD haha!! i'll miss your laughter! which really amazes me! haha!! it's cute though...once you laugh, everyone will turn their heads looking at you XD i love your present that you gave it to me! i really love it! thanks for always having faith in me, never ever looked down on me..guide me all the way THanks a lot!

"Ice Queen"- i know you don't want me to reveal your name so i replaced it with ICE haha! thanks for always being my heroine and also diane's 1. You taught me from STUPID to SLIGHTY STUPID XD haha!!!! you're my teacher for a year!! i hope to see you in the future!!! as u know, i can't live my life without you XD

I will miss you guys very much!!!! You guys are every part of my body! i can't live without you guys!!!! haha!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! and of coz! i will miss sue ann too!! haha!!!!
Enjoy your holidays my dearest friends!!!! Hope to see you guys in the future!!!!

Yew!!!!!

2009-11-24T12:38:00.001+08:00

YEW!!! guess, what! i just saw ur tumblr about me..
lol!!! thanks a lot!!!!!!!! lol!!!! finally revealed ur true self XD
it's ok...friend sometimes will beh song each other 1 ma..
haha!!! happy holidays ya!!!!!

I LOVE U!!! THANKS A LOT!!!!!!

Dedicated to Chern

2009-11-14T17:13:00.001+08:00

Dearest Chern,

Thanks for always being there for me when i needed u We became closer and closer to each other after Melissa left our 132G

Your bright smile always enlighten your "husband" and my day It's true! no joke my dear!! We've stayed together for 8 months, though it's short but i cherished every single minute and every single second when u're with me. I felt safe when i'm with you, i can share my secrets with you cause i know u're not one of those BLABBER

Staying with you for 8 months, i noticed that you've grown matured every single day. First sem, you used to be quite playful but now, u got your own reason to achieve your GOALS. It's very sweet of you to WORK SO HARD for it..as i have the same goal like yours

Besides, thanks for being like a big sister of mine. Taking care of me...and guess what, I'll miss you like how i miss Melissa cause no one will be knocking on my door anymore how i wish you'll be there knocking my door like always asking me questions

Yesterday, i really enjoyed a lot hanging out with you guys as my "PARENTS" had Lunch in FRIDAYS, dinner in KIM GARY and of course, the 2012 that we watched together! We shed tears together in 2012 (how pathetic ) I'll etch yesterday's memories into my heart forever...

I received your message just now. That's so sweet of you... tears flowing down my cheeks after reading it. Believe or not, it's all up to you. Well, hope to meet you up soon in the future I hereby wishes you all the best and good luck in your studies! Happy Holidays to you

Love,
Jen

p/s: just now when ur "husband's" back, she asked me: where's my wife? haha!!! she said she's so sad, she didn't have the chance to say bb to you

FIRE!!!!!!

2009-11-02T14:30:00.002+08:00

School's on fire today ... i thought it's just a fire drill practice just like what we did back in our high school. But actually, the school is on FIRE!!!!!
To be honest, when i think of FIRE, 2NE1's song pops out of my head XD and that's all it is...
no fireman, no policeman, nothing..is just

U got the Fire..BOOM BOOM BOOM!
u got to drop it like it's hot...

lol! i'm damn over..haha! well, i don't think there's any fire but there're smokes only according to my dear friend, ASH. she was on that floor... 1 thing i thought is funny : When there're fire, ppl sure run for their lives, but my friend, she packed her things then only run for her life ==
lol!!! i salute u!! haha!!!!
All classes are canceled! HOORAY!!!!! policemen and firemen arrived...and we even took some pictures of them~ and me and ash get free stuffs fro SLOGGI

Stupid me is..i dare to say maybe the weather is too hot and this causes the school to HEAT UP! ==

I'm Crucified

2009-10-25T17:14:00.003+08:00

the LINE SUCKS AS ALWAYS!!! shit it!!!

sigh~ all of us has been a bumble bee for a month...just to complete our (Statistics, English, Economics and Accounting) assignment and presentation which is 4 X 2 = 8.
as you can see...we're already yellow-skinned + we almost wear black shirt everyday/week..this really makes us look like 1~

GOD! we got 8 things to prepare...gosh!!! deadline is next FRIDAY ~ wahaha!! and yet...i haven't complete one of those above...

WEnt to sunway pyramid today to fix my stupid maxis! guess what~ i'm CRUCIFIED!!! how i wish i could flip the bird in front of them!!!

Aza Aza Fighting everyone!!!
Break a leg Charlene for your Cambridge A level's finals! *Pray for you~
thanks to my "WING-ed" brother for willing to dl me movies...

Family~

2009-10-17T13:48:00.004+08:00

Parents and siblings came down to visit me cause i didn't go home since my sem 3 started. I'm such a pudding-head! i miss my family so much! I looked forward to this day... it meant a lot to me

Well, they reached earlier than i thought so i jumped down from my apartment from 4th floor to the ground floor..(jk!) and so we headed to mid-valley cause i did reservation there we shopped quite a lot~ walk until we fagged out, our toes cannot feel the ground anymore then only we head back to our room ==

I'm glad to see that my parents and my siblings purposely came all the way down from ipoh to visit me, thanks a lot! i appreciate it...thanks for celebrating my birthday with me...it's a memorable 1...never had a celebration in a hotel room before~ lol! LOVE YOU~

Bad Day

2009-10-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

damn it! i've lost everything that i saved!!!
cause of u!!!! shoot it!

looking forward for 2mr~

COFFEE DAY

2009-10-07T21:12:00.002+08:00

Guess what ppl, it's COFFEE DAY!!!
5 minutes Before our econs tutorial start, Joel came in and said that: u can get free coffee from Starbucks. I was like (Joel, are u out of your mind?) lol! The FREE COFFEE words are haunting the minds of THREE...so... why not go, rite? it's free though..
At the eleventh hour,Ash, Diane and I rushed out of the class for the sake of getting Starbucks' Espresso. Deep down in my heart shouting:

STARBUCKS!! HERE I COME!!!

At 1st, we saw the queue quite long, so when we're on the VERGE of giving up! the QUEUE started to move!!
haha!! what a day for the 3 of us!!! we managed to get our espresso in 15 mins which is consider fast! when the barista handed over the espresso to me, i was like FREE STARBUCKS! lol Stupid me! haha!

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Back home, Charleen came and looked for me once again to hand over something to me... Well, she gave me a little surprise ONCE AGAIN.

Charleen, i would like to take this opportunity to Thank you for everything!! U helped me a lot ever since i'm facing obstacles. U've always been there for me, gave me strength when i was weak, be a "sister" who always care for me, taught me how to be a STRONG GIRL, gave advice whenever i really needed ONE. U're such a nice person that I wanted to thank GOD for giving me such a GOOD OPPORTUNITY to know you u're just like a light that will light up my life everytime. Thanks for everything you've done for me! Thank u! I LOVE YOU!

Nothing but Thank You

2009-10-06T13:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks a lot everyone! for making this day so special and yet so memorable...
Well, This is the 1st time i celebrate my birthday without my family around...so it's kind of awkward
Those who touched my heart, you know who you are...Thank You and Love YOU is the only words i can say!
A big thanks to Ash, Yanling, Diane (for the D.I.Y. card & a PIN) ; mummy daddy for the little surprise ; Shiau Veen (for the cake) ; Charleen (for every1 surprise you gave me!) ; RuiNi (for your Ferrero Rocher) ; Brendan (for contributing the quota) and others for your wishes!!
Thx: My beloved JIN, chagia, unni, my 3.3 & etc... including the ones in facebook. Thanks a lot!!
i'm very touched by everyone's words and i really mean it!

This post is to show my sense of gratitude to everyone! May God Bless You~

to the 1 who denied crying

2009-10-05T17:25:00.004+08:00

To the one who DENIED CRYING
I GUESS i know what happened~ i wanted you to admit so badly so that i can give u a MAMA BEAR HUG see you so quiet at the lecture hall there.. and yet u dare to tell me you yawn instead of crying! it's a very lame EXCUSE ok
Well, i hope if u're facing any troubles that you wanted to tell me so badly and you dare not..pls don't keep it from me. it makes me feel some how uneasy... cause whenever i'm angry or down, u're my pair of EARS You did so many things to me, you replaced our sister M's place in my heart...you fill up the missing part of our sister "M". but of course, deep down in my heart, the 5 of u! are the best partner-in-crime i've ever met
i just want to let you know that, whenever you want to release your anger, i'm willing to be your punch bag NO KIDDING!!!!

Yours Truly

Happy Mid-Autumn

2009-10-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone! especially to my love ones
1st time i'm not able to celebrate with my family but with charleen..
Have a nice day everyone

Moss Pool and Bday Michelle!

2009-10-01T16:12:00.003+08:00

Just Look at the POOL This is way too RIDICULOUS!! Let me tell you guys..those white fluffy stuffs that you saw on the pool isn't the reflection of the CLOUD it's from the POOL

Taylor's service is so FANTASTIC!!! We can't blame them, what they did is good for the nature! they're eco-friendly they don't want to waste the water... so they just leave the pool until it turn into so GREEN or maybe the person in charge is 1 of the SS501's fan who knows rite?

Happy Birthday to you, Michelle wish you all the best!! love ya!!

scared my butt off!!!

2009-09-30T18:33:00.002+08:00

6.30pm!!! i felt the ground is moving!!!
i'm on the verge of collapsing man!!!!
i thought my chair is going to break or what~ cause got too many clothes on it...
and so i removed some of the clothes..but i still felt like something is moving. At another thought, i thought i'm going to black out or what~ so i rush out to my room...in case if i black out, at least someone knows it XD
my housemate said: i felt the trigger too!
GOSH!!!

GOD!!! pls bless me~

BRB

2009-09-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

talk about swimming pool in my place..

Back to SJ

2009-09-24T23:59:00.006+08:00

Sigh...reached my 2nd habitat ONCE AGAIN...urggh~ how i wish that i have more than 1 week holiday so that i can spend more time with my family
Going to miss my mum's & aunt's home cook food!

Today, what a sudden! we changed accounting tutor our new accounting tutor is a China man Boy~ the moment he opens his mouth to introduce himself..i just couldn't stand anymore but just LAUGH Felt so sry for him I didn't mean to laugh but the way he talks is like He's having CONSTIPATION I hope he can teach us well enough..if not, i'll commit suicide right in front of him

Shoot it! now i hope that the programme office won't change the lecturer for accounting!

Vacation with Family

2009-09-21T17:31:00.004+08:00

Just came back from Pangkor with my dearest family...
Seriously, i hate the sun! just because my lil bro and sis wanted to SEE the SEA so badly..my father planned to spend our holidays at Pangkor..(gosh! )

Well, this is my 1st time I really enjoyed the activities at the beach because as long as there's the existence of the ULTIMATE SUN! you won't see me there
but 1 thing!! everything is fine over there..but the "hotel" there...sucks

On that day, I went for boat ride, snorkelling, jet ski-ing, banana boat etcwell..you know me, i'm lazy..so i'll just let the picture do it's work

The sea cucumber that looks like some kind of THING...lol!! the man who's in charge of the boat purposely jump into the WATER just to let us see what does a REAL sea cucumber looks like

the 2 little ones that NEVER SEE BEFORE THE SEA in their WHOLE LIFE and my elder bro's SAND OF FAME

enjoyed the most: banana boat ride and jet ski...

but of course, i enjoyed the snorkelling as well..
me and my lil bro got STUNG by a mild jellyfish...damn it! wtf! i'm enjoying! and u this stupid creature come and disturb us

I supposed the above pics is enough for this post...lol shall proceed to bed...

The End

Good Luck

2009-09-12T22:36:00.001+08:00

Mid Term is around the corner...
Break a Leg everyone!!!

Hibernate mode is Activated from now onwards...

Promise...

2009-09-08T16:55:00.002+08:00

Your words have moved my heart
I'll give my best shot and won't let you down...
This is my promise to you...

Do ntg..misses HOME

2009-09-03T21:48:00.003+08:00

Dang! what i'm doing now?!?!
i'm so going GAGA now!!!

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Loved- Ones

2009-08-29T19:31:00.015+08:00

Aloha!!! i'm back for this post!!! let's flashback...

p/s: i won't type that much...cause i'm lazy + no strength..cause i haven't had my lunch yet no worries, cause picture worth a thousand words...i'll let the picture do it's job..enjoy ^^

well, we planned to go to the Good Samaritan Home to do our community service for the moral assignment. We gathered in front of TBS at 7.30am. There're altogether 3 cars heading to Klang...the 6 of us which consists of Grace (the driver), Shih Yian, Diane, Ash, Yanling & me in 1 car.. while the others...go by C.S.'s and Marcell's car...

We reached Klang about 30 mins i guess...we stopped near Jusco to pick up chris...and US in the car while waiting for the traffic light to turn green~ grace took it with her back view mirror

Finally, we arrived at our DESTINATION

the above pictures make u drool rite? haha!!! Frankly, this is my very first time...to have Bak Kut Teh as my breakfast..lol!! The girls' shot...

After we finished our breakfast and settled our bills, again, we continued our journey for about 5 minutes to the GOOD SAMARITAN HOME...let's have a look at the surrounding...

Down there is a picture of us with the kids...so sweet XD

On that day, it is also Thomas (one of the orphan)'s birthday...we celebrated birthday for him...the way the kids' eyes stare at the cake....is just so cute!!! haha!!! if i'm not mistaken, the cake is known as CHOCOLATE TEMPTATION... and also we bought 10 boxes of DOMINO PIZZAs for the kids...

C.S. then gave out red packets and sweets to those children...

I don't know why..Philip get 2 packets of sweets...he ran towards ash & I and handed over some sweets to us... Well, i'm quite touched although it's only just a SWEET...it meant a lot to me and ash. In the end, we gave him back the sweets as we can buy anytime we want, rite? He refused to take it back...but after a few times of rejecting his sweet, he finally took back his sweets...
I also asked Philip what he wants to be in the future...he answered: i wanted to be a doctor to cure sickness and fly far away from here...i wanted to go sabah/sarawak (it's not that far ok? haha) Philip! i hereby wish ur dreams will come true

These are some of the random shots we took in the orphanage...enjoy~

BRENDAN, DON'T KILL ME!! haha!!!! just to make my blog more interesting that's all...no intention to hurt u~ XD

The picture up there is Philip...he started his life in the HOME last year 2008's xmas... Be Strong BOY!! hope u'll remember us forever

Suddenly 1 of the boy asks us whether we'll be coming back to visit them in the future? Our expressions are so DUMBFOUNDED and the boy continued his sentence by saying: i know you guys won't come back... (this conversation...haunts me for the whole day ...but if i got chance, i'll come back and visit you guys..)

After we left the orphanage, there's a tinge of reluctance and sadness in me, as I recall the many sweet moments we all had and the good times I have spent with the wonderful and quirky kids...

Down...

2009-08-15T22:55:00.003+08:00

I had a very lousy day today. Even the weather was bad too. It was cloudy, the sky was grey and that was exactly how I felt.

Have you ever felt as if you are all alone and there is no one whom you can talk to? Don’t ask me why, but I have been feeling such lately. I thought that I am going to pull myself out from the doldrums yesterday and get back on my feet like normal. I started the day on quite a positive note and really tried to be myself but, alas, by mid morning, I was down again. Funny, even as I try to uplift my spirits and keep myself busy and jovial and chatty, it did not really work as at the back of my head, there is this sinking feeling surrounding me. I could not really concentrate on my work or stay focused, I was drifting away.

I had a lot in my mind and I felt quite helpless as I could not get someone to talk to. Today, everything seems quite empty and far away for me, it was like as if a lot of things were out of my reach. I am unsure if it was because I could not get someone to talk to or I did not want to get someone to talk to. I guess I felt that no one could really understand what I am going through and I could feel my heart crying. It was heavy and it aches and …it is quite difficult to explain. That’s how I really felt.

Spent the whole afternoon sleeping! This is something that I seldom do as I am always full of energy and sleep is the last thing on my mind. But, just not in the mood to do anything and do not want to think of anything. Apart form this, I have some personal problems to attend to and that too, pulled me even lower.I am always very sure of myself and I have always known what I want and where I am heading but, this is really something that I just cannot handle for the time being. Should I give it all up and go back to my life as normal and live my life for others, like what I have always done or is it time for me to do something for myself and be selfish? Put myself first and go for it, do not think of the consequences and just do it? Come what may and I will face it! What should I do? No one has the answer except me, myself.

So, here I am, venting out all my stress, anger and frustrations in writing. Did it help? Maybe a little, that’s all. It is always better if there is a shoulder to cry on.

I hope...

2009-08-15T20:01:00.004+08:00

Ex ,
LOL!! ur handphone... don't feel bad for it~
it's fine! if you think that's embarrassing ,
then don't take out your phone during class

i thought that idiot is the 1 Mel accidentally said it out?
then why is the idiot at no.13 in your list
the idiot's name should be at the list no.16 to the last

guess what.. i'm alone in my apartment now
Can't wait to see you
U better make sure you found what i want
If not, i'll burst into tears right in front of you
OMG!!! i got lots to buy , we shall go thr by
Your present you want RM20? from me?
i help you to ask that idiot to pay for me
(c ya in your blog)

can't wait for my doggie to arrive

what's wrong with me??
am i really back to a netizen??
OMG~~~
I'm going crazy now!
I felt sorry for You
sry for letting you down again~

EX!! look here!!!!

2009-08-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

Ex, here's a msg for yoU!!
Pls Don't REVEAL who you are here..
PLS PLS!!!
reply me in your blog XD
lol!!!!!!
yaya..can't wait to see you on that PARTICULAR DAY!!!
and..hello?
i don't need a guy's hug ok?!
i really hope that i can find what i want...
and if you wanna meet your so called "future bf" then go ahead..
but u're staying at his apartment...
you can call him & meet up with him though XD

Temperamental

2009-08-14T22:28:00.003+08:00

I'm turning myself into a netizen
maybe last time i am 1 but now is even serious.
u changed a lot
i thought you'll understand me more as time goes by
but you didn't
U thought u were the right one
Besides, everything we did for you, you didn't even appreciate it
You either just say TA or TA very much
i tell you! You're the one! with HALF-BAKED personality
I'm not the only one complaining that! OTHERS did too
You think that You're RIGHT always!!! ALWAYS!!!
ppl who really helps u, you didn't bother that much!
ppl who are just passer-by in your life, you appreciate them so much
MUCH MORE THAN US as if they're your TRUE FRIENDS
Do u know how heart break we are
I don't think you'll care about that! You just care about yourself
You never think of the others Not even US
Showing a brooding ill humour is what you always DO
I always thought that u've grown up to be a BETTER person
But You DIDN'T
U've always want things to be YOUR WAY
let me tell you
Not Everyone can STICK OUT with your PLANS

If there's a wishing star
I'll wish upon that star
that You'll be your true self
like the first time we met